The Lost Soul

Ever since these days I felt myself lost the direction of life....I started to feel disorientating and disconcerting. Everything appeared to be a fuzz to me and things blurred my sight so often. So was my mind confused by so many things.... Though I couldn't ponder any one of them and this caused me moody these days as I couldn't wriggle out of the situations.

Chinese New Year is just around the corner and yet my heart does not thump for it. I may wish that I can put on new clothes on myself and build up the brand new one of me in this year. Though I'd always wished that I could remain myself and wouldn't grow up too soon for the sake of naturalism. I wished I could stay younger, I wished I could have more days to be spent because all those years before I felt my days flying passed in the blinking of an eye. It was so sarcastic that I could vaguely reminisce my childhood memories. As I've mentioned just now, everything is blur for me.....

Seventeen maybe an ideal age for me in coherent with Edward's age. It maybe silly for me to even relate to two totally different things. Though I know profoundly that I'm an unrealistic daydreaming soon-to-be seventeen teenage. How euphorigenic it will look like if I'm the heroine in the book forever.... How meaningful life will be if my life is different every day. Everything seems impossible to me. It's too bad for me to even think about it because to shirk from problems is my most wanted.

Should I crane my head for the arrival of Chinese New Year or should I just remain the same calm piece.... But I'm looking forward to the trip to KL in February. XD I'm afraid that I will become a shopaholic crazy in shopping only. My purse will be tight later. Wish that I will have a happy Chinese New Year la and so are every of me fellow friends....

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